Well this is painful.
I feel I need to not be on here...
Firstly, I haven't been active for the last month anyway, i've been incredibly busy with my art course. However I will never regret taking it. I feel happy with what i'm doing again, not taking art last year was very stupid as my teacher continuously tell's me, last year when she returned from adoption leave (like maternity leave...but she adopted a child) and I wasn't in her class...she wasn't the happiest with me
I do want to focus on my art though and improve as much as i can. Until a few nights ago i thought my work was very boring and predictable (traditional...my teacher doesn't know i do digital occasionally even if i haven't for about 2 months...) but then i was asked if i could help the department at our A Level open day and i agreed because i've done every open day my school has held since i joined. My teacher decided on out display we needed my work and my sketch book so that i could talk about it if i get stumped so it got put up in the centre surrounded by all this amazing work that was abstract bright and downright beautiful and creative...but so many people ignored all that and made a beeline for my work and was telling me how much they loved it without realising it was my work and when they did...the said if it were their child (my work all includes children) they would buy it from me.
It made me feel...i don't even know. Just...so proud of my work, I knew it was good because my progress grade is the highest it could possibly be but i thought i was plain and boring...but ...apparently not. The whole 'I would buy that' isn't new to me, plenty of people tell me i should do commissions even if its just around christmas but..for strangers to say it (family and friends are obligated to say it) idk...I feel like i will do local commissions for practice...
But because of all this...I want to focus on my work. I need to get good grades artly because i want to skip doing a foundation art diploma, I spoke to my favourite university and they said that if the grades and art is good enough they will accept straight from A Level, and if i did do it and i didn't screw up last year it would have cost me £100 for the 1 year course instead of the £2000 it will cost if i do it. I will be round...may post occasionally for advice/opinions but...in active.
It's one of the best things that happened for me, made some of the most amazing friends there who i just....asdfgb amazingness beautiful people who are practically family. The pink village of love certainly brought love to me and brought me out of my downward spiral, since joining I stopped being so depressed, I haven't gone and sat in the woods on my lonesome...it brought me happiness. I am incredibly sad that i won't be able to stay there but i don't have much of a choice. It's incredibly bad timing as plenty of other people have recently left but its pure coincidence.
Thank you Heart Shrine Village.